Oh WOW I'm a Bad girl!!

Hi guys!  So so sorry about the year's absence!!  :(  Honestly I just forgot!  Well lets get everyone caught up on our life, K?, K!

  Nope, still no human children.  Yep at this point it is mostly from stubbornness! We will try when WE are ready and NOT when EVERYONE else thinks we are!  (sorry, bit of a touchy subject, Can ya tell?)
  We have our four beagles, one inside kitty & one outside kitty.  Monsters the lot of 'em!!  heehee
  Ummm.....honestly guys nothing exciting has happened with us.  Well Neal did get moved to a different department so now he has a lot more stability in the fact we don't have to worry about him being laid off anytime soon.  Me on the other hand, well my time could be coming soon, but we are not going to dwell on that!

I am going to try to get some reviews up soon as well as a couple of recipes!!  Hope everyone out there in cyber-land is doing quite well!

Love ya'll!!

Chandra

Macaylah Rose Carver, over a year old and will be a perpetual
kitten.  Seriously, she looks like she is about 4 months old now!!

Mr. Stumpy, our outside kitty!  He is a bobtail
hence the name!

Miss Madee in her favorite perch, she Loves to look out the window & bark at pretty much Anything that may amble by!

August 2012, may be the worst ever!

As you can gather from the title, I'm not really grooving on the month of August this year.  Why you may ask?  Well, my lovelies I will tell you...I turn 30 on the 23rd!!!  AHHHHHH! (imagine a bloodcurdling horror movie scream there)  Now I know many will say "Who cares, its only 30!"  BUT this symbolizes something for me that I do not want to happen.  Let me explain, K?

1. I will be 30 & have yet to find a good job that I see myself working at for years to come.  Yes, I have a job now & God yes I am thankful, but I do not want to stay here for very much longer.  Circumstances being what they are I am not going to go into all the reasons as to why I don't want to stay here, lets just say its about that time.
2.  (This is probably the biggest reason I am freaking out) I will be 30 & do not have any human children.  Yes I know again many will say "who cares?"  But I have an entire family who constantly is pummeling me with questions as to why I have not yet blessed them with an offspring.  Now do Neal & I want children (a child) yes we do.  But you see we have a house that is literally 102 yrs old, needs a new roof, a second floor that is Not complete enough to live in & only 1 bathroom.  (yep that's right girls almost 7 yrs with only 1 bathroom, not fun!)  Just a few reasons as to why I just can't bring myself to tell the hubs "OK huney, lets make a baby!"  Also my mom is a breast cancer survivor, which in turn makes me a "1st generation risk patient".  Now I may be mistaken but this is information that my doctor has given me, so please do not go off on me, k?  But because my mom was diagnosed at relatively early age (41) this puts me a higher risk of possibly developing cancer in my early 30s.  Now I will admit I am the crazy person who worries about virtually everything to the point that I have had 2 different ulcers already, but this is something that weighs heavily on me.  I have a sister-in-law who has had 4 children in the last 5 yrs, which should have held off the pressure on me right?  Well it should except they live in Colorado, & we all live in Georgia.  So if anything the pressure has been mounting.  But also my current employer will not pay me for maternity leave, so if I was to get pregnant I would have to literally work until the day before my scheduled c-section (I will not be able to deliver naturally for medical reasons) & would have to be back to work as soon as the Dr said I could drive. So just lovely huh?

I know that I am just rambling on, but hey this is my dang blog, so I'm sorry but if you do not like what I am writing, please move your cursor to the top right corner & click that little red X.  So these are a few reasons as to why I do believe that this August will be the worst ever for me.  Now who the heck knows I could have an amazing job offered to me randomly in the next month that could change my life ever.  But that is life right?  Things are always changing in our lives whether we want or like them to.  So I guess the moral of my little rant is - You DO NOT have to be Uncontrollably happy just because your freaking birthday is around the corner!  Thank you & that is all!

Discourgaged

Yes the word of the day/week is "Discouraged".  This one word can describe my attitude, feelings & thoughts of this week.  Now I won't go into the entire long lament so that you (whoever you may be) can roll your eyes & say "Get over it!"  That isn't the purpose of this post.  My purpose to hopefully help someone else out there who may themselves be feeling discouraged this week.  I pray that God will shine a light on your dark days & lift what burdens are pressing you down until you feel as if you may never stand upright again.  I say this because I believe it is better to pray for your brother or sister before you pray for yourself.  Many of us know people who have no problem praying for others, but never feel worthy enough to pray for themselves, so hopefully my little prayer for you before praying for myself will ENCOURAGE you!  I also pray that God will show me his purpose 'cause I know he has one or I wouldn't be going thru this much stuff at once.  I pray that he will lift my burdens away & fill me peace that only he can give.  I truly hopes this brings a spot of light to your day & please know that even though you don't feel worthy of love & prayers, there is someone out there who thinks you are worthy & I do love you even if I do not know you, nor will ever know you. 

Thanksgiving...& why I'm NOT a fan

Hello, Good Morning, whatever you use as a early day greeting. I thought I would share a few things so that if you are maybe in the same situation you will know that its OK to NOT like a holiday.
First of all, YES I am VERY freaking thankful for all that I have! Uh, DUH! But sometimes things happen & it really just ruins things for you. Example: I am NOT a fan of Thanksgiving. Why? You may ask. Well Thanksgiving was the first HOLIDAY that we had AFTER my grandmother passed away as well as the first holiday after my grandfather passed away. Now you may be asking yourself, Why in the hell should that matter? Well you see I never saw my grandmother on my dad's side & never met my paternal grandfather (he died before I was born). So my maternal grandmother was the ultimate Matriarch of our family. Every Thanksgiving she would start cooking everything on the Monday of that week. And 8 times out of 10 I was there simply because school was out & I was relegated to my grandparents house almost anytime school was out. Now yea at the time I hated not being able to see friends, but now I'm very grateful for those times making pies & cookies & cakes. So you see because EVERY SINGLE THANKSGIVING up until 1997 I was with MY GRANDMOTHER! Therefore every blasted year I am reminded of that first thanksgiving without her & how no matter how great of a cook ANYONE else is, NO ONE is EVER going to measure up, myself especially. So that is MY reason as to why I just don't like Thanksgiving (we won't even begin to go into how EVERYONE generally makes me feel like a fool for my own thoughts & feelings).

Now you may be saying, OK that is a plausible reason, well I'm about to hit you with another...I'm not really a fan of Christmas anymore either. Now STOP before you grab your bible & come running in to try & exorcise the demon that has most definitely taken me over (already had someone try to "exorcise" me when I was younger & NO unfortunately I'm not joking AT ALL), I have a very good & plausible reason for this as well. In 1995 my family moved to the area I live in now, very tough stuff for a 13 yr old, believe me. Well exactly 6 months to the day (Dec 30th) after we moved, my dad passed away. So you know what that means? Yes Christmas was the last holiday that I spent with him. And you see my dad was one of those crazy rednecks everyone always makes fun of for having a million lights strung everywhere all over their house & yard! Seriously I think he would have put lights on my dog if he could have. So the entire holiday (& I'm talking about the commercial side of it, decorating & getting everyone together whether they want to or not & all that crap) just doesn't hold any joy for me anymore, simply because I'm reminded that I no longer have him here.
So there is my personal reasoning as to why I'm NOT a nice or happy person during this time of the year (we will not talk about the stress of money & trying to buy nice gifts for people & trying to pay bills). Now I can say I don't care if you think I'm crazy or whatever else, you know my reasoning & I think if I'm supposed to accept you & your weirdness (whatever that may be) then you should have to accept mine at least I have a plausible reason for my gloominess.

Nutra-Nail Gel polish!

Review time loves! Now first off, SORRY no pictures! My camera, which I have loved since the day I bought it, has finally decided to die. Well...partially, half the time it will not turn on & others the flash will not work, its just crazy. So I know that this is kinda a sucky post without pictures, but I'll try to give you the info you need anyway! K? K!

I purchased the Nutra Nail Gel polish in Moonstone & tried it out that night. Now what is it? Its a "gel polish" that you DO NOT have to "cure" with a UV light. Supposed to dry pretty much immediately, dry Very shiny, and last up to 10 days (I believe).

First the color: Moonstone-Beautiful dusty blue with small micro shimmer glitter. (best way I know to describe it lol) Put it this way, its Purrty ya'll! lol

From what I could tell & going off my previous experience of trying to do my on nails at home with acrylic kits, this essentially is the "gel" from those kits that you paint on the color while this is still wet, and Voila! your "uv-free gel polish". Problems-I could not get a nice opaticity built up for this, but luckily it was a beautiful color on the slightly sheer side. I did end up with "globs" of extra gel along the edges of my nails (total application error on my part). Did it dry immediately? Yes! I love that part of it seriously! It was very shiny & only a slight gritty texture felt even with three coats.

Now on to the lasting part- this did not last very long on me, BUT I also put it thru its paces! Long story short: my house is over 100 yrs old LITERALLY & with winter coming on, we had some mice, as I know everyone else gets as well. Cleaned out the ENTIRE pantry & kitchen & put Everything back nice and organized. I noticed a chip Sunday morning while fixing breakfast & by about 1:30 that afternoon I had peeled it almost all the way off of all my fingers. Now to remove this they say either buy their little remover packs (basically a sponge with acetone in a little pouch) or soak a cotton pad in pure acetone wrap around fingernail & top with foil. I'm impatient so I just held the pad on my fingers, but it worked ok.

Final thoughts: Did I like this? Yes! I think this would be perfect if you had something to do "fancy" for the night & wanted a fast easy good-looking mani. Its comes in about 12 or so colors, ranging from very sheer pink to dark vampy burgundy purple ( very pretty shade by the way). BUT...THE PRICE!!! $11.99 @ my local Rite-Aid is a little too much even if there is a $1.50 off coupon on the display. $10.49 is still too much for me to spend on a polish at a drugstore. $8.00 for Essie hurts my heart sometimes, but lets face it we can't live without Essie can we? lol So overall I think this would work for someone who needed a quick fix good mani for a fancy evening, but for everyday, just not sure.

I am a woman, I'm Not happy about my weight...

As per the title, lets get real, ALL of us are Not happy about Something in association with our body. This applies for men as well as women. *Remember that the man in your life could be just as unhappy with the way he looks too.* Now this is just me and what I am trying to do to make myself healthier (& of course look better!lol). Let us look back to high school...wow over 10 years for me! lol Anywho, I was I guess what you would call "skinny" in high school. I'm a bit above average height for a woman & in HS I was a size 0/3. Now this is not taking into account the fact that the Bootie was there even then, (seriously I was know as "the girl with the best Ass!" no lie! lol) but my abs were a completely toned six pack, my arms all nice & chiseled & my legs while being a little bigger than others (soccer, biking, roller skating & horse back riding will give you AWESOME legs TRUST me!) they were very toned & looked HOT! lol ok maybe not HOT but they looked good. Now you may ask "what did you do to stay in shape?" NOT work out that I can tell you! lol You see I HATE to work out. If it seems remotely like it may be a "workout" I ain't doing it my dear! But there was something else I did ALL the time that I have now concluded kept me looking good. Dancing! Not ballet, but I do throw that in sometimes, but I'm talking dancing around the kitchen, living room, bedroom like a fool & loving it! You see I love music of all kinds and genres; example: I have right now in my kitchen on top of the radio
1. 2 Celtic Woman cds
2. Evanescense
3. Elvis
4. Several Old school rap cds from my HS days
5. 1 of my Disturbed cds (I have them ALL)
6. Muse
7. Several of those "variety" classical cds that you can find @ Target near the greeting cards

So you see I have to have music around me. I have proven to my boss that with music playing in my office or the back room where I reign I get at least 50% more work done in a shorter amount of time. But anyway back to dancing & me losing weight. I do not eat super healthy, but I'm not munching on crazy fried foods all the time either. I would say I'm an average person who likes my bad stuff with the good stuff thrown in. I've recently cut out a LARGE portion of pepsis that was my go to drink. & by just doing that I noticed a difference within 3 wks. But to help it along I've decided to get back to doing what I love to do & will get me looking sexy again. lol There is no rhyme or reason, just MOVE!!! Do this to start & I promise you will feel something: Get a Michael Jackson cd or download it to your mp3 player of choice. Lets face it, you HAVE to dance when you hear his music, right? Now if you have carpet in your house set it up to vacuum, seriously stay w/me now. I personally pop that cd into the surround sound system, crank it up & LET. IT. GO!!!! You see if you are dancing around your house like you think you are going to be the next broadway star or video star WHILE vacuuming, you are getting 2 things done at once plus when you switch arms pushing the vacuum, along with swinging your arms like a monkey, you are working those as well! Plus almost anyone can do this no matter your age. Put on some old Elvis, & baby swing those hips! Good Luck to ya & I'll see around the next turn!! XXOO

Review!!!

Good morning ya'll!! I hope that everyone had a superb Fourth of July! As always ours was great (its also my father-in-love's birthday!) the parade on Saturday was so much fun, but it was INCREDIBLY HOT!! lol Anyway on to my review!

Ok, so some of you may know that I have what you would call "wavy/almost curly hair". Most of the time they come out looking very "beachy" (which is great!), but the problem I have is finding products that work properly. You see my hair is VERY fine but I have a lot of it, plus it is LONG, we're talking below the bra strap long. I know many of you have used those "curly" products that while yes your hair looks amazing, feels like you dunked your head in a vat of hairspray. Yick!! I literally have tried almost every product in the drugstores for this & have only found a few that I liked. Well I ran out of what I've been using for about 2 months now (studio FX curl serum I think is the name, found it at CVS) & so decided to try a new product. Enter my review (sorry about the long way to get here lol)...Cristophe Curl Defining contour creme. Today is my first time trying it so I thought I'd take ya'll with me!

First impressions...Nice! The smell isn't icky, which some of you know can be a problem with some curl creams. The texture is great, not sticky & best of all doesn't weigh my hair down or make it look like I haven't bothered to wash it. I only used this after washing my hair with John Frieda Luxurious Volume shampoo & conditioner. So far so good, I'm loving it! Now its only 10 am here in GA, but the humidity is already pretty high & no crazy frizzies happening! And the BIG sticking point...my hair ISN'T "CRISPY"!!!! *CHEERS* I will update the post later on today & add some pictures! I hope ya'll have a Wonderful & COOL day!!

My new start!

Ok, so I know I'm not the only one out there who religiously reads several different beauty blogs. I'm stating this by looking at the number of followers on the mulitple blogs I read. So I've decided to throw my hat out there too. First of all I'll give you a little background...I LOVE makeup! True most days I don't put any on, but still, its a great love of mine. (Yes, I'm the one who must buy the newest coolest trend just to have it! lol) I would Love to become a makeup artist, but unfortunately do not live in an area where this profession would be condusive to my income. (In other words, there is no way I'd make any $ from this! lol) But way back when in high school I did my friends makeup on a routine basis. I loved it! I didn't do out makeup for prom, but did pick out all the colors for each of us (4 in total all getting ready together @ a friend of a friend's house where she did our makeup and hair for free! She was awesome & can't even remember her name!:() But for all of our chorus concerts & competitions, pageants, big dates, & dances I was it! lol I also did my own makeup for my wedding. In which you'll see below. I believe I did a pretty good job considering I literally didn't go to sleep until about 1:30 the night before & woke up @ 3:00! So just consider this my 1st beauty blog. I will try to get a couple of pics up of various looks I've done! Hope ya'll like it, please feel free to comment!

Silly little stuff

Good afternoon everyone! So I was over at beautybroadcast.net reading some of Emily's older posts & saw this and decided it was a good idea! Some of you may not know me personally so here is a fun way to let you know some fun, random things about me!

1. What color is your hair? RED!!!
2. Drama? No thanks
3. Are you a girly girl? Yes, I am! Even though most days you may see me without a stitch of makeup, I really love to get dressed up!
4. Who was the last person you hugged? My hubby Neal this morning when he left for work. He always comes & tells me bye, love you & hug & kiss every morning! (Even the ones that I'm still asleep when he does this!)
5. Small or large purses? I have a few small ones, but everyone will say large for me! But those who make fun are always glad that I have whatever it is they want/need in my "satchel bag"!
6. Are you short? Uh, not really 5'6" or 7"
7. Do you like somebody? I do, bunches of people! :)
8. What would you do if someone smacked your butt? Uh, for those who don't know me...I have a big butt, & I'm proud of this, so random touches from strangers happen & are rewarded by me announcing to the world "Who just touched my butt?!" Yep, I embarass them! heehee!
9. Do you care if your socks are dirty? Well, the dirty ones go into the hamper when they are taken off, so this doesn't apply.
10. Do you dress up on Halloween? Yes, most of the time.
11. Are you double jointed? Not sure, but I'm flexible.
12. Where is the weirdest place you have slept? Prob be the stockroom @ Jcpenney in Athens, GA , when my mom & I both worked there & I was SUPER sick but couldn't go to dr till the afternoon, I climbed up on the roller belt, grabbed some bubble wrap, put my coat on top of it for a pillow & slept all day!
13. Has anyone touched/smacked your butt in the past 24 hours? What is it w/the butt smacking thing? lol Neal last nite!
15. Do you call anyone by their last name? Yes, Neal gets called "Carver" if he does something bad! lol But yea, a couple of people
16. How many guys will read this just because it says "Girl Confessions"? who knows, I didn't call it that

"X" marks the spot

[X] I do wear makeup
[x] I have cried at a movie theater
[x] I can put mascara on w/out opening my mouth
[]I get jealous [Nope, I get mean!!! lol]
[] I think Johnny Depp is sexy [not really, cute, but not sexy]
[x] I love to laugh
[x] I like death metal [YEP!!! LOVE hard metal!!]
[]I like rap [NOT a rap person]
[x] I like Country
[x] I carry a purse
[x] I'd be lost w/out my computer
[]I own a Spice girls CD
[]I own a Brittney Spears CD
[] I own a boy band cd
[] I get bored watching football [um, watch a GA game w/me & you tell me! heehee]
[] I've never been called a spoiled brat [have, but I'm not!]
[]Guys are confusing
[]I've been called a bad influence. [no, I was the good one!]
[x] I have/had a piercing other than my ears.

17. What color is your bra that you are wearing? White
18. Do you prefer light or dark haired guys? DARK!!! I LOVE Black Hair Obviously! [look @ Neal]
19. Are you currently frustrated with a boy? No
20. Do you have a best friend(s)? Yes, 15 years and counting girlie!!!
21. Have you ever had your heart broken? yes
22. What size shoe do you wear? 71/2 or 8 (71/2 in heels if anyone wants to buy me some! lol)
23. Do you like your life? Yes, I'm very blessed to have the people around that I do! Sure I complain sometimes, but that is human nature.
24. Has one of your friends ever stolen a boyfriend from you? Back in high school.
25. Have you ever jumped in the pool with your clothes on? Yep
26. Do you have more friends that are boys or girls? Guys
27. Do you wear extensions? Not yet, but I'm trying to save up for some clip in ones
28. Have you ever slapped a boy in the face? Yes
29. What are your biggest fears? Losing my loved ones.
30. Have you cried yourself to sleep? yes
31. Have you ever not been able to get someone off your mind? yes
32. Do you believe in the saying "once a cheater, always a cheater"? from my experience, yes
33. Have you ever had a good feeling about something? yes
34. Do you ever wish you were famous? sometimes
35. Are you currently missing someone? yep
***This guy or that guy?***
Punk/goth or Gangster? neither
Preppy or Cowboy? cowboy
Face or body? both
Sweet or Sexy? both
Armani or Abercrombie? neither
city-slicker or rural guy? RURAL
Blue, Green, Grey or Brown eyes? BROWN eyes!!! or at least 2 that I love!
Contacts or glasses? well, Neal doesn't wear contacts, but wears glasses and is sexy so...

***Your pick***

36. Eyeliner or mascara? Mascara
37. Louis Vuitton or Dooney & Burke? Neither, Coach
38. Heels or flats? heels, at least 3 inches
39. Skirts or pants? both
40. Sock or leggings? both
41. Sweatshirts or jacket? sweatshirts
42. Flip flops or sneakers? flip flops
43. Straight or curly hair? which ever I feel like dealing w/that morning!
44. Hoop or dangling earrings? either
45. white or black? black
46. Victoria Secrets or Bath & Body works? BBW
47. Smoothies or Lattes? Lattes
48. Diet or regular soda? Regular, can't drink Diet they give me migraines
49. Orange juie or apple? Apple
50. Pearls or diamonds? BOTH
51. Vintage or boho? Vintage 40's pin up style!
52. Mary-Kate or Ashley Olsen? Uh, they are still alive?
53. Lindsay or Hillary? Neither
54. Ipod or cell phone? cell phone
55. Friends or family? BOTH
56. Lip gloss or lip stick? Gloss
57. Manicure or pedicure? Can I get both? lol But my toes are ALWAYS done! Hate naked toes!
58. Tiffany's or Chanel? Either, both are classics for a reason
59. Love or peace? Peace will bloom from love, even if its just love of your neighbor!
60. Sunglasses or purses? Well, I routinely lose sunglasses, but ALWAYS have my purse!

**In a guy?**
Funny or Serious? Neal is a perfect mixture of both
Romantic or Daredevil? Daredevil!
Cute or Hot? Both
Dark Eyes or Light eyes? Dark,Neal has beautiful brown eyes!
Long hair or short? LONG!!! I wish Neal would grow his out, I LOVE LONG hair on a man!!!!
Curly or straight hair? either as long as its clean
Good Dancer or Good Singer? either one or both
Basketball player or football player? Football, I HATE Basketball!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (Really, can you tell?)
Jock or Rebel? Rebel, jocks are so predictable
Druggie or Clean? Are we talking back when I was in high school or now? lol I don't think there are many that are clean now! But seriously, thats something that has to be determined in each person
Has a Motorcycle or Sports Car? Classic 60's model muscle car baby!!!! Mustang, Chevelle, Camaro, etc...
Beard/Mustache or clean shaven? Well, Neal has a little scruff, but luckily isn't a wholly man
Younger or older? older, Neal is 6 months older than I am, PERFECT!
Player or Loyal? Uh, DUH Player of course! JK Who came up w/this?

Ok, so there you have it, random, stupid interesting stuff! Tag yourself if you so feel inclined!

It's getting that time!

Good morning all! I hope that Halloween was safe and fun for everyone! I realized this morning that almost all of the posts I've made on this blog have been negative and mainly just a place for me to vent out my frustrations, so I decided to explain myself just a bit. First of all, I am NOT a negative person. Well, not any more than anyone else I know. If it seems like all I do (or anyone else does on their personal blog) is complain, gripe, fuss and vent, well...sorry! For me this is my therapeutic outlet. That is the best thing about the internet. For the most part it is a nameless, faceless entity that you can just rail at without the reprocussions of backlash. Understand that most of the things I've said on here, I cannot say to the actual people in my life that have upset me. You see I do not like knowing that anyone is mad at me and tend to almost make myself sick to make everyone happy again. Plus I understand that things happen in waves. If one person says something hateful to me and instead of turning the other cheek and walking away, I blast right back at them, odds are someone Else is going to get hurt or uspet. Yes, I am one of those disgusting people who tries to be the peacemaker. Sick, right? LOL Anyway, I just wanted to give a simple explaination for my comments and hope that you understand me just a little bit better now! Love to you all!

This is me, take me or leave me

As my title indicates, this post is about me. The true me and how I feel. If it offends you, I'm sorry, but that is the wonderful thing about the Internet, there is this Wonderful little thing at the top right-hand corner called and "X" or close button. Click it if you don't like what I'm saying. So without further adu:

I am a person, I'm a woman. I am not a republican, democrat or liberal. I do not follow politics because All of them say what you want to hear & Not what they will do. I am a Christian. I believe in God and speak to him on a daily basis. I believe that he loves ALL people whether you a gay, straight, black, white, yellow, purple, blue or pink (I believe that includes Everyone, don't you?). I love my husband to No end and truly believe he is my one and true soul mate. I believe in the sanctity of marriage, But believe that for some it is Much better to end that. To some marriage is a contract, easily signed and almost equally as easy to break. This, in my PERSONAL opinion, is YOUR choice. Those who are "Christians" (I say this with quotations because we all know people who say they are but DO NOT portray ANY actions to support this) who say "you are married, you stay married No matter what". I say if this is what you think GREAT! But I do not believe that it is right for you to judge someone else. You HAVE NOT lived in their shoes and DO NOT know what goes on in their lives. I Do not begin to say that I am the Best Christian in the world, I'm not, I'm a sinner just like Everyone else! Therefore because I am NOT God, I DO NOT judge others for anything. I believe that is God's place to judge and I'm NOT about to try and do his job. I am not writing this to try and change anyone, I understand that each and every one of us is different and some will just get mad and want to bash me. I say go ahead if this makes you feel better. I'm not going to take offense and probably honestly will not read what you say. We all have this wonderful thing called "Free Will" meaning we have the ability to make our own decisions and actions. But for those few who read this and see that they have mistakenly judged someone for their actions, looks, color, orientation, and unfortunately for even the color of nail polish or length of their finger nails. I say take a minute. Think about the times someone has wrongfully judged you for something so inconspicuous and think about how you felt at that time. Go ahead..............Feels pretty bad, doesn't it? Not fun at all. So I challenge you to look past outward appearances and look to the true heart of people. I'll even give you a hint, look in their eyes. Most people cannot hide their true feelings thru their eyes. I promise you if you do this for just ONE person, you will notice a change in yourself. And more importantly a better one. So God Bless and I truly hope each and everyone of you have a wonderful day!

Baffled...

I am truly baffled by some people. I can't go into details in any way shape or form, but needless to say a friend of mine is going thru a very hard time right now and the ex is only making matters worse on her. Why is it that some people can truly lie to your face that they want you to be happy, but under it all they don't. Nevermind the fact that said person has had someone on the side for a bit and it has progressed. Truly, undeniably crazy. And no this isn't about me or Neal, we are fine, I promise. I just hate to see someone I love going thru so much crap for nothing. Also how can someone who has known you on a very intimate level for a very long time no truly know you? I know EXACTLY how Neal would/does react to almost anything that happens. Although maybe thats just us and we share things w/each other a lot more. Don't know, and at this point, don't care except for there are so many other people and factors in this that its really going to messy when it blows. And yes, I say "when" not "if", because its going to and very soon, and I might not like it, but I might end up hurting someone's feelings.

Book-aholic

Yes, its true, my name is Chandra, and I'm a book-aholic! Or maybe its reading-aholic...well you get the idea. Just to give you an idea, I have read a total of 8 books in the last 5 days. And we aren't talking tiny little 150 page books, I'm talking 300 or more pages each! Neal picks on me and tells me that I have a serious problem. I read everything from thrillers (like Demon Seed by Deen Kootz, my current I started this morning) to very, um, sexy books (like Sydney Croft, which is a paranormal erotic series and is AMAZING!!!!). I seriously could turn our house into a library, except that I don't like to loan my books out, because then what if I don't get the back? Oh the tragedy! Anyway, sorry about the melodramatics. Now with this being said, I do not like every book I read. I generally know if I'm going to personally like a book in the 1st 3 chapters. For a while I would only make myself finish the 1st chapter, but I've decided sometimes a book does take until the 3rd chapter and sometimes even past to really get going. But unfortunately, if you don't get me in those 1st 3, well good chance that its going in the box to go to NE GA Bookstand in Commerce, its a used book store that takes trade ins for store credit. Of which I have about $150 paranormal and $90 regular and I haven't been in a while.

So because reading is such a huge part of my life, I've decided to start blogging about the weekly books in my life. Who knows, maybe this could help someone out there who wasn't sure about a book, you really never know. And since I read so much anyway, I might as well talk about it to someone other than Neal and the dogs, although Daisy does seem to enjoy it sometimes. lol

So I mentioned the Sydney Croft books, I got the last 2 that are out and both of them are really amazing. Now be warned, these are erotic books, the sex scenes are not for the faint of heart. But unlike some others I've read, it actually does tie into the plot of the books. Not just a bunch of people humping each other they've never met in a dark alley or anything (and YES I've had a couple that did just that). The series is about an organization that takes in "gifted" people. These people have some sort of a paranormal gift and they use it for good. Like trying to stop an evil organization from destroying the world.

Lover Mine by J.R. Ward was another biggy this week. It is from the Black Dagger Brotherhood series and just might be my favorite in the series so far, but I say that everytime I read a new one. LOL Quick set up is vampires, Huge Gorgeous men in leather that aren't afraid to get dirty,...mmmm...ahhhh...oh sorry mind wandered a little. Again, the sexual content is a little on the strong side, so I definitely wouldn't recommend these for people who like more lovey-dovey scenes, not that theres anything wrong w/those.

Uhmm...Whispered Lies and Silent Truth from the BAD series by Sherrilyn Kenyon (yes, she may just be my favorite author of them all) and Dianna Love. This is a series about a secret government agency whose only focus is keeping America safe, by any means necessary, and I do mean ANY! These actually would be very good for women or men. Lots of action and fighting, plus a couple of steamy scenes that are definitely steamy, but not way too out there.

Ok, I think thats all for now, but I'll try my best to come back soon and give ya'll a few more reviews! Love ya'll and Thanks so much to all the writers I've mentioned, you keep me completely entertained!

Just one of those weeks...

Have you ever had one of those weeks where you're just completely confused and depressed over nothing, anything and everything? This week has been that kind of week for me. Not really sure why, but it has. I'm really just so tired of the everyday blah crap I have to deal with and would really like to step back and just relax. Unfortunately, this will not happen for a few weeks, if even then. My husband informed me this week that (whether I like it or not) we will be buying our house. This development scares the crap out me and I'm just not up to thinking about it. Plus, it seems like the older I get the more and more I'm compared to other people in my life. (Yes, unfortunately for me I'm getting compared to the "perfect" ones) For once, just once I wish someone would just say, "Good job, you're perfect just the way you are." But you and I both know this will never happen. Some of these feelings are probably just my own insecurities, but hey, I am a woman, I do have them. Oh well. Just one of those things. Well, I guess I have belly-ached enough. Thanks to anyone who actually reads this, although honestly, its just a place I can get some frustration out, w/out the nasty side effect of hurting any feelings, for which then I feel horrid about.

Irritating...

Ok so, as we all know we are smack-dab in the middle of tax season. I work at a CPA's office. I.E., my life is INSANE right now. Plus when you add that I am playing driver for my sister and her kids everyday, so for the last 2 week s I've been working 4 9hr days, a 7hr day, PLUS at least a 5hr Saturday! This week I have 48 1/2hrs! Just wanted to give you a tiny insight.
So Saturday night when we get home from Mom & Dad's house my Mom calls @ 10:01pm. Very odd, so I call her right back. She tells me that my 53yr old cousin had a mild heart attack. He had a cath done and actually came home Wed. So I'm assuming that everything is fine, haven't heard anything weird and was planning on going over to see them this weekend AFTER I get off work Sat. Last night I find out that they are now pissed at me b/c I haven't been over and haven't called. Ok, I admit, I should have called, but figured that everyone was just a little on edge and really didn't feel like talking. Oh, did I mention that my cousin's best friend was down until Wed as well? You have to know that these are the cousins who I can't ever figure out if they like me or not. Honestly, the longest I've been in the same room w/them in last 2 yrs was at Christmas for about 30 min talking. Generally when I walk over from my mom's house they are back in their room and don't come out OR if they are in the living room, go back to their room. I've told you before my family IS NOT a happy, huggy family. You're lucky to get a passing Hi! So now I have people pissed at me when I thought I was doing the right thing by leaving them alone until things calmed down some. OH YEAH! Did I mention that I don't even get home until 6pm every night & then have to fix dinner, wash clothes, & try to wash dishes since the plumbing in our house is going crazy. The bathtub is VERY slow to drain & if you wash anything in the kitchen it backs up in the bathtub. Great right? Then you add in the fact I'm worrying about how to come up with the $ we owe for taxes $600! to the state plus we're doing estimated tax pymts of $500 every qtr. Which adds up to me getting together $1100 before April 15th.
So on the off chance that my cousins do read this (which I believe is HIGHLY unlikely) I'm sorry that you felt I didn't care about you and what was going on. I do and did! I just figured ya'll might want some quiet time together and since let's face it ya'll aren't exactly nice to my mom (who YES!!!! I know is a difficult woman, better than ANY of you will know) I didn't tell her to tell ya'll anything cause I wasn't sure if you were speaking to her. But DON'T worry, from now on any and every little blip that happens I'll just come running & when I bug the CRAP out of you by being around when you just want to spend time as a "close" family, ya'll can then explain to me that you appreciate the enthusiasm, but would like to be left alone.
Ok, I got all that out, but still feel like crap because I just don't like having people angry w/me, probably something to do with that whole abusive ex thing. You know, that kinda thing sticks with a person for the rest of their lives. (BTW...don't think I ever got ANY kind of comfort, phone call, email or even a freaking smoke signal when I finally told everyone what had been going on? Hmmm....Interesting don't ya think?)

The season is starting...

What season? you may ask. Well, tax season! As some of you know, I'm a bookkeeper @ an accountant's office and this time of the year is pretty insane. Reminds me of the beginning of the semesters @ the health center. CRAZY! Its kind of fun though. Ok, well I just wanted to check in w/everyone! Love, Hugs & LOTS of KISSES!!!!

Curl up with a Book and a Nook! Contest

Christmas 2009

Wow! Christmas is gone already! Can't believe it, New Years is right around the corner! So many new things have happened this year w/the wedding and new babies coming along. Our family just keeps on growing. I hope everyone had a wonderful and safe holiday season and I pray that it continues thru the next year! Love you all!

What in the world?

Have you ever just asked the question "What in the world?" You know, the one where you just stand/sit there with this completely confused look on your face? I have been asking myself this question very regularly the last few days. And I'm sure the face has accompanied it many times. I completely understand that things happen in your life that you have NO control over. So that is not the purpose of the question, but why just because I do not agree to something does that automatically put me at fault? Times like these are when I truly have to remember that no matter how wonderful people are, we (YES! I say "we" because I myself am guily as well, I do not believe myself above reproach), and I mean humans in general, are selfish. We can be very sympathetic to others needs and wants, but very often we want our own needs and wants met first. I also understand (better than a lot of people) that not all families get along all the time. My own blood family is a very good example. Those who I do have frequent contact with, as well as those I never see. I mean I have 2 half-brothers that I did not meet until my dad's funeral, obviously we are not close, one of which decided to say some less than attractive things about my mom, which of course "upset" me greatly. True I was only 13 but hey, I can blame grabbing a baseball bat and starting to go after him largely on grief, right? I know that I am rambling, but that is what this thing is for anyway, right? I am the type of person who take pretty much what ever kind of abuse you want to put to me. I've dealt with it most of my life, so this is nothing new. BUT...when you start upsetting my husband and my sister, who also happens to be one of my best friends, we have a problem. Both of these people are fiercely loyal to those who they love. And much like me, will take whatever you want to put on them. But both are also very tender-hearted at certain times and ESPECIALLY when it comes from certain people. I just feel very bad that just because I make a decision that is good for me that I should be blamed for it!!! But OH WELL, I don't have "actual" children, I only have dogs so I should just be able to do what anyone wants me to do. Ok, sorry I'm getting snippy and I'm sorry if this hurts anyone's feelings, but you know what, I've had mine hurt a lot and I'm still alive. But again, I'm sorry if it hurts feelings, I would never do this purposely, but do feel that I am inclined to my own opinion and should be able to express it in my personal blog.

A Wedding!

Yes, we had a wedding. Not mine of course that was almost 4 yrs ago, but our cousin Paul married his sweetheart of a fiance Allyson. It was a very sweet simple wedding held at the Gazebo in Danielsville. True to Newbury fashion, the wedding didn't start at 5, but somewhere around 5:30 or 5:45. The cd player we had to play the music wouldn't play the burnt cd, so we had to use Mom & Dad's Volvo to play the music. Which is really quite amusing, but like we all said, at least it was a Volvo and not a big 4x4 truck! It really was a fun night and I hope everyone else had as good a time as I did.

Neal and I have seriously been trying to get ourselves back into church and it is something that we are committing ourselves to doing. And NO we're not doing this so that everyone will look at us and say "Oh, look at them going to church, they're being so good." This is something that we are doing for ourselves and our family. Neal is struggling w/some things and he is praying daily that God will give him the strength he needs to overcome. Both of us know that we do not want to stay on the path that we are on now and have decided that now is a time for change. We have both been saved for a very long time, I was 8 and I believe he was around the same age. Unfortunately, we have just not been living the way we should. One thing that both of us are praying daily for help with is our language. If you do not and have never cussed, then I admire you. But this is something that both of us struggle with and we have decided that it is time to stop. Ok, thats just a bit of what has been happening, so I'll leave w/a few pics from the wedding and reception.